When Your Emotions Beg to Win

This morning did not start out particularly well.  I had a terrible night of sleep with some whacked out dreams and woke with a stiff neck and a headache.  Determined to make the most of this day the Lord has made, I forced myself out of bed and headed for the fresh pot of coffee.

On the way I stopped to take my medications.

A little backstory here: Roughly nine months ago I started medicinal treatment for ADHD.  It’s a complication I have said to have for years.  Life with ADHD seemed perfectly manageable (thanks to skills I had learned over the years) until I had children!  I finally met with a counselor to have myself tested and received a resounding YES as to having ADHD.  A few months after that I met with my doctor and started taking Adderall.  I must tell you, my life has been transformed for the better!  I had no idea how many frustrations in my life were a result of how my brain functioned (or in many cases, did not!)

So anyway, on the way to the coffee I stopped to take my prescription amphetamine and when I tried to cut it in half (a long story I’ll skip) some of the pill went flying across the kitchen.  Now this would not have been a big deal if it wasn’t for the aforementioned children!!  A one year old accidentally ingesting an amphetamine does not sound like a delightful day.  So I turn around to pick up the pill AND I CAN’T FIND IT.  Looking for it turns into a pre-coffee scavenger hunt, which of course leads to discovering the refrigerator coils need a good vacuuming and every lost toy, pacifier and dart we can’t seem to find is lodged under the stove.  I make the wise decision to skip the big messes for now and (amazingly) stay focused on finding the pill.  After a thorough sweep of the kitchen and a search around the counter I finally find all the parts of the pill.  Because of course, it had split into quarters.

I take two of the quarters, an allergy pill (for the headache) and finally pour that first, piping hot cup of coffee.  And in that moment I found myself faced with a decision….

Do I allow this little incident to dictate my whole day (and attitude) or do I make the wise decision to step away from any further earthly responsibilities and dig into the Word?

By the grace of God, I chose to step out of my own way and allow God to speak, and he took me to Joshua 1.

Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them.

Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you. Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may have good success wherever you go.

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it.

For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

It would have been so easy to turn from God’s Word this morning.  I could have let that moment turn into anger and frustration which would have impacted the rest of my day.  I would have greeted my children with wrath instead of love and their day would start off just as rough as mine.  But God, in his infinite grace, reaches out to us.  He makes our way prosperous and gives us good success.  But only when we take the first step.

So be strong this morning.  Find courage this morning.  The emotions that try to rule you today were designed by your creator.  Don’t give in to them but rather meditate on the truth you know; that God is good and faithful and true and he is just waiting for you to cry out to him for help from your moments of desperation.

I’m heading back to the kitchen now.  Breakfast is calling my name!  But this time I’m returning in His strength, not mine.  I will be strong and courageous.  I will find success today because I will make the continuous choice to live in his truth instead of my emotions.  It’s not going to be easy but I’ll cling to these words…

“Be strong and courageous.  Do not be frightened, dismayed or overwhelmed, for the Lord YOUR GOD is with you whoever you go!!!”

And that my friends, is a truth you can claim as your own!!

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